much too long

wow. it has been sooo long since i updated. nothing is really too new with me. wedding plans are so much fun and i'm looking forward to becoming a wife and having all sorts of fun as a married girl....i sorta feel bad for people who can't find or don't want to find a special person to spend their lives with. i think it's the best feeling to have dan there every step of the way. i'm still such my own individual yet i get to be part of something so awesome. it's hard to explain i suppose, unless you're in that place. anyway...life is going well. studying, working hard, enjoying life, planning a wedding. we get our engagement photos in less than a week. late, sure, but i'm a procrastinator so it's a wonder they got done at all, lol. invitations are doing wonderfully and i'm looking forward to mailing them out in a little less than 2 weeks. i can't wait to be on the beach in mexico....yay!

i've been losing weight lately and feeling soooo much better. i've been working out and eating so much better, i can't believe i let myself go for so long. and you know, people might talk and say stupid crap about people that are big but you know, as long as you're happy with yourself that's what matters. well, i was getting to where i didn't want to look in the mirror because nothing looked good on. i'm still a big girl and i'm okay with that because i see massive changes in my weight and my appearance and most of all in the way i feel. so, i'm glad that i've lost weight and look forward to losing a bunch more. i have a goal weight in mind and what's great is that i've lost weight before the wedding and will continue to lose more after. and even better, my goal is realistic. i'm not a crash dieter like those girls (or boys) who lose weight for spring break and then gain it all back. nope, i'm losing weight the old fashioned healthy way, eating well and working out....and getting paid. that's right....it paid to be fat for a change, lol. in about a month i should make $450 give or take a few bucks all for getting more in shape, loving my body more, and getting back into a much healthier place in my life. i miss high school because it was so easy to work out. being on 3 sports kept me active year-round. i look forward to joining a sports team of some sort next summer possibly, when i've most likely accomplished my goal weight. i try not to make it unreasonable, i would like to reach my high school weight again...which for me is much more doable than other people. i wasn't small in high school and i'm not asking to be a size 4 or 6 or a lot of other sizes, lol. i just know what i want and know i can get there. the research study has proven to me yet again that i can accomplish goals if i'm willing to make worthwhile sacrifices and work hard. well, enough of my soap box....i've taken a hiatus,...hopefully the updates will be back in full force soon.

life is good...life is good.